I love Gods sense of humor. I know God gave me kids in order to show me how he loved me. Tonight he chose to use my sweet daughter Gracelyn. You see my daughter got this doll for Christmas three yrs. ago. She calls it an American doll, even though it really was a my twin doll that I had made to look just like her. But, after about two months she lost it by leaving it in a basket at a department store.
Ever since then she has missed that doll, cried over that doll and also prayed to miraculously find this doll. She saves clothes I find that were hers at a younger age and says "I am saving this for my American doll!". She asked Santa last year for another doll. But with no prevail Santa did not deliver the doll. But my daughter did not give up on her doll. Well recently I ordered one of these dolls one night while she was asleep, and tonight the doll arrived in a huge box. Soon after I ordered this doll she said, "I feel like Gods telling me I'm gonna get my American doll." I put the box away and Gracelyn never saw the doll. Just before bed time she came to me crying "Mama, I want my American doll". I said Why now?? She said, "I've waited for a long time and I don't think I'm going to get her". I asked her if she was giving up or she was going to keep believing. With tears in her eyes she said "I still believe, I won't give up."
As I dried and brushed her hair I thought about the doll only 100 ft. away in the closet, and I began to think of how much I wanted to bring the doll out and give it to her. How she had waited so very long and really she did deserve it. How she by faith had prepared for the doll, by saving clothes for a yr. or two now. She has been so patient and excited about this doll.
Then I began to think, Isn't that how God feels with us. When we are unjustly persecuted for whatever reason, and we cry out to him because we are hurt or because we begin to doubt a promise God has made because it's not our time. God has our blessing in his hand, and loving us so much he sent his son to die for us. I can imagine even God wanting to make our dreams come true, mend our relationship, or immediately change our circumstance. But he doesn't. Why?? because he's God. He knows more. He knows the right timing and what we need to learn along the way and I honestly believe he wants to spend that waiting time with us. After all we were created for his enjoyment, to commune with him and have a relationship with him. Does that mean I will wait forever as many of my friends and family will tell you. No!! And neither will my daughter. I will give her doll to her for her Birthday, when the time is right and her face will shine, and all her friends will be there to see, and then I hope she smiles at me. throws her arms around me hugs me tight and screams "Thank you mom!!" and she will show it to her friends and hopefully she will share the doll with them and they can all go home to their parents and scream"I want what Gracie has." For those of you who have children who are friends with mine , I'll share my doll secrets. J/k
Anyways I know all of this may sound silly or even a bit selfish or proud on my part maybe even a little jealous,but actually its very biblical. You see just as i am waiting on the right time to give Gracie her doll, God is waiting on the right time to fulfill his plan in my life, just as I want my daughters face to shine, God wants mine to shine because of believing in his promise and putting my faith in him. God wants people to see him in me, just as I want all her friends to be there God wants every one to see what he's done. Yes, God is a little jealous he wants to receive all the glory for the things he does. Just as I want to see my daughter's smile, God wants me to smile and give him total thanks for the victory he's already won. I want my daughter to throw her arms around me and scream thank you!! God wants me to throw my arms around him confirming I know he's the one and give him praise for what he's done, and last but not least I want my daughter to show and share her doll with her friends so they may go home to beg for a couple years for a doll too j/k. God wants me to share what he's done for me, so that others may believe and desire his will for their life too.
Yes tonight I could've gone to the closet and taken the doll out and watched the tears leave and a smile appear on my daughters face but Hey!! the glory comes from waiting, so I didn't!!
If you are waiting on God or in a hard spot as I find myself in, just know Your doll is in God's closet and your Birthday is around the corner.
Psalms 130:5
I wait upon the Lord. My soul waits and in His word I put my hope.
I wait upon the Lord. My soul waits and in His word I put my hope.
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